Monday, October 06, 2008

I Won't Be A Kettle, Nor A Pot! Never!!

After enduring 3 days of torture, being unable to walk, eat or talk properly, I seriously think The One Above would have given me a good lesson for breaking the law. (for a note, I was fallen very ill)
I have been thinking of the despicable act throughout these period as well, and the more I think of it, the more disgusted I feel towards myself. Perhaps that would explain why I was feeling nauseous last few days.

Even though it was a meagre amount, a bribe is still a bribe. The white cloth is already stained.
After all that I have been making a big fuss about our country and the corrupted politicians, I have fallen into the same path. Isn't it ironic for me to condemn all the dirty politicians, and eventually I committed the same action just like them? Me, a kettle, calling a pot black!! What difference would I make, if I commit the very sin that I looked down upon?

Enough of this, I say.
No more of this shit.
I am not going to make myself dirty and unaccountable for my action.
So, I am going to make a change. I am going to keep to my words and continue my battle against this uphill fight.

Nope, I am not going to surrender myself and get myself slapped with fine 10 times the amount. Or going to jail. I don't have much courage in this, yet.

But hell no. I am going to make a promise. A promise which I would not break.
No more bribery, be it small or large amount. Never shall in my life expose myself to this dirty act, ever again.
If I break this promise, may The One Above send the lightning strike down upon this forsaken body of mine and strike me into pieces.

Nah, I would be able to keep to this promise. I know I will.
Just like how I keep a promise not to consume anymore shark's fin. It's been 3 years since I made the promise, and I am still.
It's not that difficult.

Not difficult at all.

4 comments:

ec said...

God bless you. Amen

Big Bad Wolf said...

Insyaallah bismiliaah nirahim..
:D

Anonymous said...

ahhh wolfie, if everyone could have the same mindset as you do! Then the world would be a better place.

Sometimes, despite all you've done, it won't make a big difference to the big picture because everyone else is still ignorant and committing the same offences. Over and over again.

Like not using plastic bags. You can use less, but when compared to the billions of ppl out there still using them, what difference does it make to Earth? An hour more of its life?

-A person who has given up in humankind

p/s: kudos to you for your efforts. Though it may not be a significant act to some, at the end of the day you can say to yourself in pride, "at least i tried".

Big Bad Wolf said...

Dear Anonymous,

You've given up on humanity eh? LIfe indeed sucks, but instead of joining the crowd, you stil have an option, that is to go against it. It may seems stupid to go against the wave (hell, there's been much advice on never to go against the wave).

But then, at the end of the day, you are the one who are accountable on your action and your doing, and no one else would be able to answer that for you.

Dont' give up, just yet (i think i woudl need to say this to myself too! LOL)