After enduring 3 days of torture, being unable to walk, eat or talk properly, I seriously think The One Above would have given me a good lesson for breaking the law. (for a note, I was fallen very ill)
I have been thinking of the despicable act throughout these period as well, and the more I think of it, the more disgusted I feel towards myself. Perhaps that would explain why I was feeling nauseous last few days.
Even though it was a meagre amount, a bribe is still a bribe. The white cloth is already stained.
After all that I have been making a big fuss about our country and the corrupted politicians, I have fallen into the same path. Isn't it ironic for me to condemn all the dirty politicians, and eventually I committed the same action just like them? Me, a kettle, calling a pot black!! What difference would I make, if I commit the very sin that I looked down upon?
Enough of this, I say.
No more of this shit.
I am not going to make myself dirty and unaccountable for my action.
So, I am going to make a change. I am going to keep to my words and continue my battle against this uphill fight.
Nope, I am not going to surrender myself and get myself slapped with fine 10 times the amount. Or going to jail. I don't have much courage in this, yet.
But hell no. I am going to make a promise. A promise which I would not break.
No more bribery, be it small or large amount. Never shall in my life expose myself to this dirty act, ever again.
If I break this promise, may The One Above send the lightning strike down upon this forsaken body of mine and strike me into pieces.
Nah, I would be able to keep to this promise. I know I will.
Just like how I keep a promise not to consume anymore shark's fin. It's been 3 years since I made the promise, and I am still.
It's not that difficult.
Not difficult at all.